"Our mouths and bodies speak for us in a new language as the trees shake loose a rain of petals that stick to our slickness like skins we will wear forever. And just like that, I am changed." — Libba Bray (The Sweet Far Thing)
I have something to look forward to. I am going to Utah this summer to work for the National Forest Service. So why do I wake up everyday feeling so sorry for myself? I am on the path to achieving my ultimate goal. Just because I am not married, on my own supporting myself- at least I’m not stuck in some dead end job. I should consider myself lucky. I am doing things according to plan. I have always said, ” I don’t want a family until can provide for myself.” There is no sense in providing for myself unless I’m doing what I want to do; what I was meant to do. I am a naturalist at heart. I am the path to finally get paid for it. I feel good about that. I just need to stick things out for 5 more months so I can get on with my life. If suffering through a math class is what I need to do to move on, then so be it!
Learning can be fun, sure, but that’s not why I do it. I could have my degree by now.. if I majored in something useless. However I am a firm believer in the fact that we as a human race, and specifically as Americans are on a determined path to destruction and ultimately extinction. This is why I have chosen a major (Natural resources) that will hopefully get me away from all the major cities in the US by November of 2012. You can call me superstitious. That’s o.k. I’d rather be superstitious than unprepared. I am working toward a degree that will hopefully sustain the human race (and this great nation) a little longer. Its not about the money. That’s what’s wrong with this country! We are so blinded by greed and material things that people have forgotten where they came from. Also, for the record we don’t have to live in the woods to be eco-friendly. Watch this.